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Is fear or faith your motivator?

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As I reach into my savings account and pull out this months bills to be paid out on month 5 of my unemployment I think to myself “hmm I didn’t really plan to still be HERE right now.” But I am.  And somehow I’m ok with it.  At least I was before I let the world seep in and make me question my motivator.

Does fear or faith motivate you?

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As a human most likely your answer is probably both, even if it’s just faith in yourself or someone else or a process.

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If you are faith based, then ideally faith weighs in more, but let’s be honest we still allow fear to run things a lot, and probably don’t necessarily think that is a bad thing anyway because after-all at least “fight or flight” mode allows you “get the job done”, right?! Well true, maybe. But I feel like the goal shouldn’t just be just to get it done and move forward. Life is more than a series of check-marks to cross off for most of us.

For those new to my blog, I left my occupation, one of flexibility and a good solid salary because I felt there was something more that I was meant for and that occupation wasn’t my purpose in life and I wanted to take time to allow for a breather for God to redirect my path and allow me to steer down the path of His choice and I felt the only way for me to allow myself to “be still and listen” was to take myself out of my comfort zone and into a place of rest and discomfort in unemployment so that I had the time and openness to allow for redirection and purpose.

All that said and done, I sit here months later as onlookers probably see my continued unemployment as complacency or undirectedness (which I kind of is– by choice) or more commonly that I’m being unrealistic in what I am waiting for and had a great job I should have never left especially when still not being clear about what I want to or should do going forward.

Have you ever been in this place in life with a situation? You made a solid decision and believed in it wholeheartedly but then as time went on and your timing didn’t match Gods timing and everyone was buzzing in your ear causing confusion, you start to second guess what God originally told you or if you even heard him clearly at all.

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So here I am. Questioning my decision to have made this leap of faith.

Still unemployed. Still undirected and unclear. Still no clear view of what direction God had in mind for me.

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Plenty of job options but mostly just getting back into what I left. Everyone around telling me just to go back to what I know, go back to sales, take that job that’s just ok–but not what I expected–just because it’s “better than nothing.” To essentially stop waiting for the perfect job; that shiny present of a well paying job that fulfills me and glorifies The Lord while I’m doing it.

And frankly, at this point everyone is starting to sound like they are right.

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But then I have to go back to why I started.

I started out of faith.

  • Faith that I was discontent in my occupation for a reason.
  • Faith that God had something different for me.
  • Faith that He would use me.
  • Faith that He would provide.
  • And faith in His timing.

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And now I am not thinking or acting in faith but out of fear.

  • Fear that my discontentment was normal, and just something people live with.
  • Fear that God maybe wouldn’t use me in the way I imagined. (which lets be honest is a very real and ok thing)
  • Fear that maybe He didn’t have something different for me.
  • Fear that He wouldn’t provide.
  • And fear that His timing wouldn’t match up to my needs.

faithbiggerthanfear_largeFight or flight.  Do I listen to the fear around me and allow it to seep in or do I trust in the character of my God who has proven time and time again that He is faithful and He is good.

It’s those times when we don’t hear or feel God,  or His timing or ways don’t match up to our vision, that is when we have to trust what we do know and that is that God is Good and His ways better.

And as always, when fearful or doubtful, go to the source of truth to put those fears to rest.  The bible says,

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  • We are chosen and special to God.
  • God will answer us and show us great things.
  • Gods plans are to give us hope and a future.

And so I gain my strong footing again, waking up and choosing faith in this journey.

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(Stay tuned to next weeks blog for the current update on month 6- last week as God made His big reveal which I can’t wait to share as I’m now playing blog catch up)

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It’s ok not to always know what your next step is.

proverbs 16: 9, steps, footprints, plan your ways, god laughs, lord directs your steps, proverbs

Never forget!! You may make plans but The Lord allows you to make those steps. There are many stages of understanding we walk through as a Christian. For me the first was just basic believing in Jesus. Next came trying to be a better person –to make Him proud, like I would my earthly father. Then came studying His word, so that I could know what “making Him proud” even looked like. Next up was giving up parts of my life to His Will. 

Because, as we all come to find out in our faith walk, sometimes the things we want are not the same as the things God wants for us. Sometimes we find out the easy way and sometimes the hard way. But sometimes, all we get is a feeling.

 Christians, we call that the holy spirit in us, that still small voice, that when we listen and allow guides us towards Gods will. Non-believers, you might call that intuition, karma, street-smarts, the universe, or just sheer luck.

But no matter your beliefs, it takes huge faith to step out of your comfort zone and into the unknown. This step from perceived safety;a secure job; a secure relationship; the state you live in; the people you know—whatever you are transitioning from—takes a huge leap of faith in whatever you believe in to carry you to the next phase in your life.

For me that leap of faith is trusting in God’s plan, and not my own. I’m praying to willingly allow Him to lead my path and allow myself to step out of my own way.

As a positive flesh person, defined as one who finds strength within themselves and is typically an “I can” person,  I am most always comfortably three steps ahead of myself with two back up plans and much certainty in my decisions, but in this season I realize how much God has left unknown to me ON PURPOSE so that I can not do what I do best —PLAN.

It’s a place I don’t sit well; feeling like I’m not making effort, hearing others say,  “What are you going to do?” –and my only answer being “I dunno sit back and pray and wait for God to show me.” –is scary and relieving all at the same time.

Why is it so hard to do nothing? Because it goes against everything I was taught. Right?!

I was taught:

  • work hard to get what you want
  • planning is a means to success
  • things don’t turn out as planned so have a backup
  • always be self-sufficient
  • God will take care of you, but you have to use what he gave you as well.
  • you get what you deserve (i think this was picked up on my own accord e.g. disobey/punishment)

Ohhhhh the woes of legalism and balancing the Christian faith….we could debate on these concepts for years, and you absolutely can comment on these. I’m going to leave them alone, as they aren’t my purpose for writing today.

What i do know is that God is showing me that while it is a blessing to be able to be self-sufficient and structured and a do-er, at times these patterns of such internal strength get in the way of HIS PURPOSE for my life. My will for my own path, is so driven and strong that if i don’t stop planning and doing the things I’ve always found comfort in—-there is a good chance I might completely miss HIS PLAN for my life. 

So if you are like me, always planning and doing, two steps ahead, loving certainty and the pride and responsibility it brings. I want you to know what God is showing me, It’s ok, in fact– necessary–sometimes to allow God to be the leader. So stop planning, step out in faith, and say,

God thank you for making me such a leader and capable of living this life you have given me. You made me bold and fearless, in your image, and although it goes against my nature, I know your plans are greater than mine, and I’m going to stop planning my life and allow you to show me what your plans are.  Help me be ok with stepping aside and resting. Help me hear you clearly so that i know your plans when you show them. Help my pride take a back seat as others don’t understand what i’m (not) doing. Help provide for me as I wait for you to show me your will. Help me have faith and patience. And mostly, be changing my heart, if your plan is not something I would readily choose for myself.

Amen

 

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The Art of Distraction

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Where did the morning go?! I woke at 8:30am and it’s now close to 10am and I’ve accomplished little to nothing.

Does time ever get away from you? It does me….all the time. Take this morning for example. My second Tuesday of “funemploment” I’m basking in my morning “quiet time”, that time us Christians claim as sacred one-on-one time to devote to our relationship with the big guy upstairs only problem is:

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“Oh lemme just check Instagram real quick…..oh cool I wanna reply to that Facebook message first……ok just one email”, and before I knew it 90-minutes just flew by and I had yet to give God any minutes.

I believe in the society of today this is one of the biggest obstacles to our quiet time and one of the devils most useful sneaky tools. I fall prey to this trick so often if not daily I’m sad to admit. 😦

THE ART OF DISTRACTION.

Sometimes its a great thing….

And sometimes, not so much.

It is one of the devils most seemingly innocent but deadly tricks. I consider myself a somewhat disciplined Christian, most days able to easily say no to the obvious things that the devil tempts with like invitations to late nights and heavy drinking, exciting events that fall during my women’s bible study, and men asking me out who clearly don’t put God first being just a few examples that come to mind —-but the devil is clever and adjusts his game plan as we strengthen our faith.

2 Corinthians 11:14 says, No wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. 

Reminding us that not all things that look good are good, and also, as shown here– reminding us that Satan can use things that don’t seem sinful by nature, for evil. Instead of causing us to do evil, all he has to do is draw us to things that draw us away from time with God and he has accomplished a great feat.

Now, it’s not others so much that he uses to pull me away from my time with The Lord, it’s myself. Its the art of distraction as I wrestle with a seemingly innocent idea of quickly checking social media first thing in the am rather than jump into my bible study.

Afterall, how much more enticing is finding out what happen while you were sleeping than digging Into that book,” I hear the devil whisper in my ear. “Just a quick look won’t hurt, then you can get to your study, Jessica.” —but the reality is the devil knows how hard it is to reign in my mind once the day hits and once I start redirecting my focus.

 

So this morning, I failed.

I got sucked into distractions and when I finally prompted myself to study, out of sheer guilt (also not from God— as if it wasn’t bad enough to steal all that time, now the devil guilts me for falling prey to his alluring distraction), I had to laugh as I opened my book to to this page:

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Isn’t it true though? Anytime we make changes (in my case quitting my job so I can focus on what God is directing me to do) the devil redirects his focus as well. So now that I have created time, he’s creating new ways of keeping me occupied and away from

My goal : Time with God

and the Ultimate Goal: Winning hearts for the Lord.

Why does a short time with the Lord matter to the devil? Because the devil knows how powerful time spent getting to know our father and prayer is. He knows if he can just thwart that the day will will be completely different.

“For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12-13 (NIV)

Believers, you know its true. Everyone of you can think to a day when you were disciplined and took time to pray and do a little devotional or bible reading or whatever your quiet time looks like and no doubt you walked into that day with more confidence and direction and willingness to succeed than when you woke up. And on the other hand, we all have those days where we rush out of bed (or get distracted from our quiet time) and jump into our day and just can’t seem to catch up or feel successful that day. The whole dynamic of the day changes due to that one small act.

And the devil knows it!

So tomorrow I will start again. I will wake with intent and leave my phone where it lies, by my bed, and dive into the most important part of my day remembering how vital it is to my day, my health, and my ability to love on and serve others.

Get behind me Satan!!