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It’s ok not to always know what your next step is.

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Never forget!! You may make plans but The Lord allows you to make those steps. There are many stages of understanding we walk through as a Christian. For me the first was just basic believing in Jesus. Next came trying to be a better person –to make Him proud, like I would my earthly father. Then came studying His word, so that I could know what “making Him proud” even looked like. Next up was giving up parts of my life to His Will. 

Because, as we all come to find out in our faith walk, sometimes the things we want are not the same as the things God wants for us. Sometimes we find out the easy way and sometimes the hard way. But sometimes, all we get is a feeling.

 Christians, we call that the holy spirit in us, that still small voice, that when we listen and allow guides us towards Gods will. Non-believers, you might call that intuition, karma, street-smarts, the universe, or just sheer luck.

But no matter your beliefs, it takes huge faith to step out of your comfort zone and into the unknown. This step from perceived safety;a secure job; a secure relationship; the state you live in; the people you know—whatever you are transitioning from—takes a huge leap of faith in whatever you believe in to carry you to the next phase in your life.

For me that leap of faith is trusting in God’s plan, and not my own. I’m praying to willingly allow Him to lead my path and allow myself to step out of my own way.

As a positive flesh person, defined as one who finds strength within themselves and is typically an “I can” person,  I am most always comfortably three steps ahead of myself with two back up plans and much certainty in my decisions, but in this season I realize how much God has left unknown to me ON PURPOSE so that I can not do what I do best —PLAN.

It’s a place I don’t sit well; feeling like I’m not making effort, hearing others say,  “What are you going to do?” –and my only answer being “I dunno sit back and pray and wait for God to show me.” –is scary and relieving all at the same time.

Why is it so hard to do nothing? Because it goes against everything I was taught. Right?!

I was taught:

  • work hard to get what you want
  • planning is a means to success
  • things don’t turn out as planned so have a backup
  • always be self-sufficient
  • God will take care of you, but you have to use what he gave you as well.
  • you get what you deserve (i think this was picked up on my own accord e.g. disobey/punishment)

Ohhhhh the woes of legalism and balancing the Christian faith….we could debate on these concepts for years, and you absolutely can comment on these. I’m going to leave them alone, as they aren’t my purpose for writing today.

What i do know is that God is showing me that while it is a blessing to be able to be self-sufficient and structured and a do-er, at times these patterns of such internal strength get in the way of HIS PURPOSE for my life. My will for my own path, is so driven and strong that if i don’t stop planning and doing the things I’ve always found comfort in—-there is a good chance I might completely miss HIS PLAN for my life. 

So if you are like me, always planning and doing, two steps ahead, loving certainty and the pride and responsibility it brings. I want you to know what God is showing me, It’s ok, in fact– necessary–sometimes to allow God to be the leader. So stop planning, step out in faith, and say,

God thank you for making me such a leader and capable of living this life you have given me. You made me bold and fearless, in your image, and although it goes against my nature, I know your plans are greater than mine, and I’m going to stop planning my life and allow you to show me what your plans are.  Help me be ok with stepping aside and resting. Help me hear you clearly so that i know your plans when you show them. Help my pride take a back seat as others don’t understand what i’m (not) doing. Help provide for me as I wait for you to show me your will. Help me have faith and patience. And mostly, be changing my heart, if your plan is not something I would readily choose for myself.

Amen

 

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Why don’t you have the things you desire?

20140501-141312.jpgHow ironic on the day I originally thought to leave my job God showed me His plans . I wanted to quit not because my job sucked but because I had come to the conclusion that it wasn’t “more“.

Huh?! Right. It wasn’t –you know, enough. It didn’t satisfy me. I didn’t want to do it another ten or even 2 years. Sure you say well my job doesn’t satisfy me either —that’s life Jessica. Wrong. That is not the life that the God I put my trust in intends for you or me.

Ephesians 3:20 (NIV) “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”

I went to a retreat months back sponsored by a dear friend who begged the question “why don’t we have the things we want?” If we (Christians) believe the bible is true and believe what it says about God and His character –then why do we not have the things our heart desires?

We threw around some great and valid answers any Christian has heard in many varied jaded tones of voice….”because it’s not Gods will”, “because God has better plans”, or the skeptical versions of those who have experienced pain and disbelief that sound more like …..” Because God is punishing me”, “because I don’t deserve it” —-the list can go on and on.

Well we came to the conclusion collectively, after much “ahhhh’s” and “ohhhh’s”, that we do not have sometimes because we do not ASK.

I know I just lost a handful of you there who say “I ask God all the time and He just doesn’t answer” —which is another blogpost all together about being able to hear God clearly or at all.

But sticking to today’s point, we do not have many times because we do not ask. Translation : We do not believe. Yes, you believe in God. Yes you believe in Christian beliefs. But you have put God and His power over your life in a “box”.  A box that says “I think God is capable of doing this (insert your realistic tangible idea) , so I will ask Him for that”

What’s wrong with that? Well nothing, you can absolutely pray that and receive blessings and have a life of contentment. No doubt. BUT IF YOU WANT A SET APART LIFE….one that is amazing and of your wildest dreams–the kind that most of us regular people look at and say, “yeah I could never have those things, they aren’t in the cards for me” –then you need to change up your prayers a bit.

I’m saying —-if you believe what the bible says—then believe it for your life in its fullest. Don’t dumb down HIS WORD to YOUR REALITY.

Ask God for what his word states, “immeasurably more

We do have have because we do not ask.  We do not ask because we do not accept deep down that God can or would do what we really want in life so we ask a smaller version of of what we truly desire.

Am I right? Does this describe your prayers? Do they sound something like this: God please allow me to have a family. Grant me the ability to pay my bills. Or even less specific ones like : God, please let me have a job I enjoy.God please let me make money.

Start believing what the bible says and take God out of the box of reality you (and I) have put Him in and allow Him to show you how truly powerful He is!

I encourage you to pray strong bold and specific prayers for your life. Ask more of God. He wants it for you, but He needs us to have faith enough to ask and believe He will carry it out.

This blog is the start to “Gods More” that I have been praying for specifically and wholehearted. That said, I will not be quitting my job just because God has given me an answer.

Those familiar with David in the bible will recall that David did not quit tending his sheep (his job) immediately just because god showed him he was going to be a King. 😉

Be blessed friends! Thanks for reading my first blog post. To God be the glory!

Great message about finding your purpose !!